Customer

So this is the actual content written on the receipt I got, few days back while working (updated on my fb wall)

Today at XX's,
I was caught in a moral dilemma. The nice cashier had handed me 41.80 in change instead of the supposed 31.80. I kept the unexpected gift in my wallet quickly, but throughout my meal, I had the n****** (I seriously can't figure what's this word) sensation that that way the wrong thing to do. Would she be tired? Or have to work extra hours? Or have her pay deducted for her little mistake? Thought like these ran ceaselessly through my mind. At one point, I even wanted to call her over, to return the ill-begotten money, but I couldn't see her name. It's a pity, I suppose, but in a pragmatic, business-like environment, you smile & take all the brealy (I have no idea what this work means but it is what he wrote there) you can get. Hard luck, miss cashier.

Yup, that's the whole thing.
The reason why I wanted to keep this with me is... I have no words to describe whatthehell he's thinking and I'm doing at that point of time. Obviously, I am in fault but he seems a lil overdo in a way by writing this. Or well, he might just want me to have my lesson. Ok granted.

Anyway, have been working this hols. Not the hectic kind but still, I feel tired even after a short 6 hrs of work. When I'm like 17-18 I can work up to 14 hrs a day and continue the next but now after 6 - 8 hrs I'm alr dead let it be 12hrs. The mindset of quitting has been in my mind of days after since YY mention. Well, that reminded me of the first time I quit. I regretted and had my job back thanks to Ryan but think of it, I've been in this lime since sec 2. So it's like 7 yrs in f&b. How sick can I be, but if I were to quit now I won't have extra cash for sch hols, and I will rot at home. I can't. I don't like to stay home daily during the hols. I need to work. Well, I will find the job that I want (trying) and quit this.

He said" Isn't we happier like this?"
Yes we are.

All the doubts

Memories are the best photos.

Well, it's kinda true because no matter how beautiful the pictures are they won't be able to tell the real story only memories can.

Anyway, I finally changed into a much decent or pretty much I like more theme for my lil space here for everyone. I guess I will stick to this for a longer time and perhaps update here a lil more often than before. I used to blog a lot like almost everyday but I got kinda lazy and stuff so that explains everything. Anyway, I'm here to update whatsup in my life..

Me!
Paranoid Kid, Yes I am :D

Basically, I think people do change right? especially when they feel that is needed. So mainly because of Poly and my own relationship, I've changed. People who knows me well will think that I'm listener not a talker. I don't talk on phones, well I listen though I will not give much relevant solutions but still. For people for don't know me well, you might think I'm quiet or anti-social but actual fact is I don't open my mouth and speak up to you guys. It's really hard for me to speak up or initiate a topic with strangers or friends I'm not close with so please pardon me but whatever it is I won't change this fact that I'm like this. Another thing is, I really dislike people calling me DEB well, actually I'm fine but argh, I just don't like it. Last thing is, I know I'm at height 163, weight 44-46 but I'm seriously trying my very best to eat a lot a lot already so please -.- I do not like my weight and how skinny I am now. I look so skinny that I have no confidence in wearing anything or whatever.

THEM!
Yes, we finally have time to meetup! I love them so much and that they will still be what I have. Well, we may looked fake to others but who the fuck cares so long as we care about each other. Six of us have our own friends, our close friends, our bfs, our school and stuff but whenever one is in trouble we'll always be there for each other. We don't keep major secrets with each other. Cut short, I really love them and really am happy to know them despite years of quarreling and stuff. Well, fate brought us 6 back together

HIM!
For big-time-gossipers, yes, I admit we nearly broke off. Well, he's really good when he is but sometimes different people has different way of looking at things and maybe that's the reason why we took the wrong path. Till then, we decided to give each other another chance to see if we're really meant to be. When I'm with him everything seems good and loving. We're great but whenever he's with his friends, I don't know. It just feels weird. Maybe because all his friends and their gfs know each other since secondary school therefore they hit off well and felt like an insider but for me, I don't. It's like they got invited but I'm there because I'm his gf. Well, the feeling sucks alright? I tried to blend in but everytime all I can do is keep quiet and wait for him to talk to me. Another reason might be, we always sort of quarrel infront of his friends. It makes me loses pride and stuff but well, idc. After all these ranting and stuff, I'd decided to let it go. He wants to smoke, go out with his friends and stuff I'm fine with anything. Only then we won't quarrel. Trust, time will find it back I guess? So does the feelings.

Well, that's all I should want all to know so shutthefuckup for badmouthing behind our back! Anything just come straight to us, we'll be glad to answer all your doubt. Well, I guess, we're all peace. And Pray hard for Japan ):

Will be back with more (: